Pretty and Unpretty At The Same Time

they said that i'm a sweet girl.
my face actually.
i smiled.
         i giggled.
                   i laughed.
but do you realize there are so many problems that ruining me everyday?
i have friends. lots of friends.
but just a few BEST FRIENDS.
for me, best friends are like my wallet.
i keep them safe.
i always want them here beside me.
another buts, i don't want any other people take them away from me.
i really care about them.
i wanna know that they're safe wherever they are.
but if they have another friends or best friends, i'm not sure that they will care about me also.
when i saw my best friends hangout with their other friends, i get jealous.
i'm afraid that they will never care about me anymore.
i'm afraid that they will forget about me.
my birthday.
my stories.
my expectations.
that i've shared with them.
but that is life.
i try to believe that there will be someone who always care about me and that is my future husband.
not just that 'someone', i still have my family who care about me.
i love my family at first.
i love my best friends.
i love my boyfriend.
i'll do my best to make them feel happy and lucky to have me.
but i just an ordinary girl that wants her life to be like a fairy tale.
we all know that fairy tale doesn't exist, but we could make our life as our own fairy tale.
always remember your good times and how you get it.
there's no time to regret everything that you did.
just take your mistakes as a lesson but don't EVER do it again.